A friend of mine has been going through a rather long stretch of waiting. Each day she wonders if something will change in a situation over which she has absolutely no control.
I too have been waiting. It seems like it has been a long waiting pattern. Not as long as some, but the time has seemed at some level to stand still.
The future after seminary for us seems so unclear at this particular moment in time. Nothing has indicated which direction we will be going. So we wait until the next step can be made more clear.
Waiting is such a boring word, honestly. It holds no action in it. It means to just stay still and of course to “wait”. But that concept reminds me of what another friend told me in college…while she was reading a book on waiting. She mentioned the story of the Shulamite woman in the Old Testament. How she had been given a child and then God allowed the child to die. So the woman ran after Elijah (or was it Elisha?) and begged him to come save her child. He came back and went into the room alone. She had to wait outside the door.
She didn’t know if he was still dead or not. She was merely to wait. And while she was waiting, did she offer God suggestions on how to improve her wait? Or did she make it clear that she would be better off with this child than without? We have no idea. She was merely outside the door – waiting.
So back to my friend whose situation can not be changed of her own free will. She merely has to wait. I mentioned to her today that God might be using this time in her life to make her depend on Him more. Tonight those words came back to my mind.
God is using this time of waiting for me to find my peace in Him. To find my solace and my strength in Him. To find my future in Him no matter what happens when the wait is over. He is using this time of peace to show me how to maintain my walk with Him. He is stretching me in other ways as we wait. We are growing closer together as a couple. Sometimes the wait isn’t so bad.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD