We ended seminary, as all of you know, last week. It was a wonderful feeling! Full of joy and excitement and all the bitter sweetness of the end of something amazing.
But we came back today to reality. We’re still waiting to hear what God has for us next. Actually we have been waiting for the better part of 8 years. I’ve also been waiting to see when our family will finally be finished. It could be years more of waiting. And honestly, I’m tired of it.
But it doesn’t change any of it. In fact, I heard tonight while I was listening to a radio preacher that I’m not the only one waiting in the world. Revolutionary thought, isn’t it?
The nation of Israel has been waiting for lets see…hm…thousands of years. Abraham never saw the fulfillment of all of God’s promises for him. Jacob never really got the nation either. To this day the nation is still waiting. Why? Because God has not given it to them yet.
Why do I still wait? When will I ever know? I have no idea. I live in the tension. I live in the middle. And there’s nothing I can do about it but choose my response to the wait. I can choose to be bitter and angry constantly trying to figure out what is next…or I can choose to rest in God – trusting that He will use us in His timing, not mine. He will reveal His will in His timing.
So here I sit mulling over my choice while I wait… knowing already what He wants me to do.
1 You, God, are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
where there is no water.
2 I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
3 Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
4 I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
5 I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.
6 On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.
7 Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.
8 I cling to you;
your right hand upholds me.
9 Those who want to kill me will be destroyed;
they will go down to the depths of the earth.
10 They will be given over to the sword
and become food for jackals.
11 But the king will rejoice in God;
all who swear by God will glory in him,
while the mouths of liars will be silenced.